dun promise me anything in the first place. cos when promises are broken. the trust between us disappears as well. i rather you not promising me anything. its been so long i swear, since i was so seriously looking forward to everyday. i swear, i was super happy. but when things are not like how it was meant to be. its too hard on me. i can't take it. ya, i'm stubborn. fancy you being wavered by what ppl said and yess, you broke you bloody promise. trust? no more i guess.
i'm so beginning to hate everyone . you, especially.
Friday 29 August 2008
FUCK. GO AWAY FROM ME. EVERYONE'S SO BLOODY LYING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. GET LOST K. IF I'M SUCH A FOOL IN YOUR EYES FOR YOU TO TOY. DUN PROMISE ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. AND ITS SO FUCKING NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS LA. DON'T STEP ONE AS IF YOU CARE. YOU HAVE ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD. IF YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BUY THINGS FOR YOUR CHILDREN THAT THEY LIKE. DUN DEPRIVE OTHER PPL'S CHILDREN LIKE WHAT YOU ARE DOIN NOW. IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH THAT MEANT TO ME. IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW HOW LONG I'VE WAITIED FOR. IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT I NEED IT COS I DO.. FUCKING GET LOST LA. SUCKER. SO THANKS TO YOU LA, FOR YOUR CONCERN.
Thursday 28 August 2008
i swear i so hate today. i can't help it, or perhaps i was thinking too much. blah blah blah.
i seriously hate the life i am leading. its studying and more studying. no life? yeaa, i've finally experienced it. even if i finally get to rest, all i think of is, "O'S AHEAD, DUMBASS". MUGGGGG your asses off people. all i wanna do straight after prelims - STONE. cos its the cheapest and most wonderful thing that one can do. having to let your mind runs wild, even its just for that second. hais, and now. i swear i'm in such a screwed up mood. you know, its really tough at times when you're not happy at all, but you have to look as though you are. and i'm now not too sure from now on on whether shud i even tell ppl wat i'm thinking? coooooooos, it will result to more worries ):
Wednesday 20 August 2008
i just realise that i'm still taking very hard on it.
still, i can't bring myself to accept the fact that i'm retaking.
dilema. confused.
devastated.
well, enough said.
its history paper tomorrow.
i doubt i'll make it. =/
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Tuesday 12 August 2008
its devastating i swear. for 5 periods, tears just kept falling. all i know was pain tat was felt in my heart. nothing else. but felt a little better when i know my efforts did pay off. ^^ hmms, so. i went to mug after school. though was a bit slack, but still. and tuition was straight after that. whoots, move on. [:
Monday 11 August 2008
oh, its o level results thats coming out tomorrow. i so can't wait, cos ... LOL. but i'm seriously worried la. i swear. and i have come to this conclusion. b3? RETAKE ! =x
Sunday 10 August 2008
I WANT TO TAKE PHOTOS ! ):
went out with the usual, again. ytd's night at east coast was fun. but was, quite screwed actually. i seriously hate ppl with such stuck up attitude. cos thats not for me. well, i'm fine without you. cos life's great enough now, and i seriously dun want any changes.
Tuesday 5 August 2008
today had been an average day which had just passed by like thats. with all the craziness with ying jie in sch as usual, and dinner with the usual people. oh, and i get to play the psp for 2 days! all thanks to MR ONG. [: well well, skipped night study today cos i had tuition. and english remedials are on everyday now. ah , fine fine. i'll try to be better at my time management then =x
Monday 4 August 2008
i'm feeling really weird. real weird. about the way everyone treats me. its just kind of weird. was it me who'd changed, or was it you?
Sunday 3 August 2008
CARLSBERGis loveeeeeeed! <3
hanged-out with usual people . yue cheng, yingjie, lucas and ah gong. was to study, but you see. its impossible with them around =x lmao, just kidding la. well, some people are meant to be blind. and so, i shall not give a damn.
Saturday 2 August 2008
life's seriously filled with many uncertainties. when you wanted things to turn out this way, they often don't. but when they finally turned out this way, i hoped it had never changed. people are the ones that were changing. and life's of people changed. regrets are what people are living in. each and everyday praying and hoping that things are turning out to be in your way. when you've given up. they changed to what you've always wanted to. till then, you'll be caught dumbfounded, isn't it?
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