The untold legacy ♥

Saturday 27 September 2008

i give up.
its way too tiring.

Friday 26 September 2008

today had nevertheless been an awful day ):

FATIGUE,

YOU'VE SUCCEEDED IN TAKING OVER ME.

i've thought it round.
such little things should not had been the reason why i was like that.
its all about forgiving and forgetting.
its no point dwelling over what's gonna be impossible.
those were just not meant for me.
or should i say.
they didn't say it was, even in the first place.

Thursday 25 September 2008

i seriously hate the everyday.
school days especially.
it wasn't studies thats bringing me down.
but instead, other things.
i'm feeling kind of tired.
perhaps i'm thinking too much.
or am i really like what you said?
each time, i seriously don't know if those words were meant to be a joke or for real.
i know its wrong to think in such a manner.
but i really can't help it.
i dun like school days.
i dun like me.

Sunday 21 September 2008

and finally, after 5 hours of studying, i thought its time to take a break ^^
and soon after my lunch, the mugging period shall resume [:
get your asses off to mug people.

mug now, or don't anymore.

Friday 19 September 2008

i just got back my prelim result draft slip.
well, L1R5 of 18, L1B4 of 14.
with this kind of results.
where can i go?
how suck.
and, today, i've finally seen it through =/

and i shall consolidate what i had done today.
well, i was absent from sch today.
but i did my revision at home ^^
i studied from 10 to 2.
and went for tuition from 4-7 p.m.
and now, i'm home.
i'm having a break after all the studying.
studied again from 8.30-11 p.m.
i'm thinking of having a break till perhaps 11.35?
then study again until 2a.m.
thats what i'm hoping to do laa.
but i wonder if i'm able to.
so its all about studying.
if i made it till 2, plus minus.
its 11 and half hours of solid studying for today! ^^
if can, i prefer not sleeping.
even so, i know i won't have enough time to revise for everything.
ohgod, know what?
i'm so stressed, i swear. =/

whyamifeelingthisway;leftout.
andwhyamithinkingofyoulikei'veneverdoneitbefore?
onceagain,havingabreakwasjustanexcuse.
alliwantedtowastoseeifyouwereonline.
but,youweren't):

Tuesday 16 September 2008

andifoundouttorealise,istillkeepthinkingofyou.
ohgawd.friendsareaskingmetostop.
iwill,someday.
andseriously,whatexactlydoilikeaboutyou.=/
andican'thelp,buttostupidlywaitforyoucomeonline):
buteachtimeican'thelpbuttosmileidioticlyatmyselfwheneverihearyourname.
please,ireallywannaforgetyou.=/

Monday 15 September 2008

today just seriously suck laa.
forever its my fault anw.
wo zhen de lei le.
just leave me out in everything then.
i hate to try so hard and yet efforts are not recognised.
at the end of the day, all i got was. all your fault la.
seriously, other than disheartened and despair. what else can i say?
wo zhen de lei le la.
i won't try to do any more things.
if you really dun like me, then forget it le.
its really hard to please everyone.
i tried, i really did.
i swear.
if i lie, struck me with the lightning then.
cos i hate liars.
if i'm one, struck me la k.
ignore me, thats what i hated the most.
the kinda feeling of being ignored, it really sucked.
but all i can say, i really did try.
tried to accomodate, tried to think of a plan that fits everyone in.
its still a failure isn't it? =/
just let me be then.

Sunday 14 September 2008

studied for a solid 5 hours today.
i so feel that my eyes are failing me.
and i'm so tired.
i finally completed my SOCIAL STUDIES notes for o's.
history and geog will be next ! ^^

i'msofeelingappreciative.
finally [:

Friday 12 September 2008

here are the latest updates of my prelims:

English: 57/100
Chinese: 63/100
Combine Humanities: 61/100
Combine science: 63/100
A maths: 85/100
E maths: 77/100
Pure geog: 50/100

FLUNK, isn't it?
the Cs and Bs.
ah, how?
o's are so near, yet this is still what i'm getting.
a JUST PASS for my pure geog and a B4 for my chinese?
LMAO. thats a real shit.
and today we had the motivational workshop, AGAIN.
and AGAIN, i feel so motivated, but at the same time, demoralised =/
but why?
are the good grades really that far away from me that seems so unrealistic?
ah, forget it.

and yingjie told me bout her aim today :
it was something like .. i forgot.
but all i know is she want to own the hongkong disneyland someday.
and by then, she will be married to her JOE JONAS.

oh, thats the dumbest she can get.
AND SHE WANTED TO PIERCE ANOTHER HOLE ON HER NOSE AND EAR.
know why?
COS SHE WANT TO HANG HER EAR RING FROM HER EAR TO HER NOSE LIKE A BULL. =/

youusedtoseemsoclose,yetnow,you'resofarthatnomatterhowharditry,you'restillnowhereinsight.

Monday 8 September 2008

today was a rather disheartening day laa.
i managed to get back only results for a few subjects.

lets have a preview huh.
but serious, i think its still not up to my parent's expectations ):

E Maths: 77/100
A Maths: 83/100
Social studies: 72/100
Chemistry: 65/100
Physics: 53/100

well, and for the others, lets wait till tmr [:
and for now, i'm waiting for my dinner and then i shall go study after that ! =/

whytillnowwhenyoualrbelongedtosomeoneelse's,istarttoregret.
butwhatkindofpersonareyouexactly?
iseriouslyseriouslywannaknow.
andthatsperhaps,thelastthingiwannaknowofyou.

Sunday 7 September 2008

its the last day of holiday today.
for this week, i've finally caught the show 4BIA.
i swear its the scariest show on earth.
even more frightening than shutter.
shutter isn't scary AT ALL.
not as terrifying as 4BIA.
but still, its still up to you people to decide.
bought 3 tee-shirts and a long sleeve shirt for myself.
and, i'm left with a shoe that i wanna buy now [:

and what have i done for this week?
its a week, that i've wasted just like that =/

Friday 5 September 2008

attheendoftheday,you'restillsomeoneelses.

Thursday 4 September 2008

hello readers,

i'm back blogging. [:
well, i'm having very very bad cramps today.
and i almost died because of it.
i was struggling very badly that i almost hugged the toilet bowl while vomitting.
ah, no cold drinks for today.

SWEET TALK - STRAWBERRY MILKTEA.

i've been drinking it everyday, for a week alr.
its so so loved! ^^
ah, yingjie's had been studying at home recently.
like an emo kid. =/
well, i'm nothing better.
wanna study, but things always happen at the last min.
well, still.
MUGG IT OFF PEOPLE [:

STILL, yours sincerely,
MISS TAN XIAO XI [:

Monday 1 September 2008

sorry readers,

i shouldn't be blogging only when i'm down.
and so, i've decided to share my holidays with you ! [:
well, its just the very beginning of the hols, MONDAY.
and so, i wanted to start it by studying.
well, was actually supposed to catch a movie at princess, but lousy cinema doesn't screen that show.
4BIA.
soooo, went to east coast instead.
know what i did?
LAN. oh gawd.
its my oh - so - first time playing in a lan shop like tat. =x
and so, i got quite bored over it and decided to go down over to the burger king to study.
studied for an hour or so, making notes for chem and we went for dinner.
with the usual ppl, yc, luc, gong kia and his friends.
guess what, i lost my bottle.
for the THIRD time laaaaaaaaaaaa.
i'm super depressed over it, and i even went to the bin, the place whr the dirty dishes were placed to look for it.
obviously, it was nowhere to be seen. ):
ahhhhh, i'm super duper depressed ok.
but i got a new one, still, NIKE.
and so, this is my FOURTH bottle.
but among these four, they all share the same trend.
all, BLACK and WHITE.
cool huh! i'm devoted =/
all right all right, thats all for today.
goodnight fellow classmates, friends, strangers, EVERYONE!
take care. sweet dreams.

yours faithfully,
MISS TAN XIAO XI [:

she had a bad dream last night =/