hmms, i seriously wanted to study today. but failed miserable ): the moment i woke up i was glued to the tv. and when i finally get myself to the book. i was seriously distracted. i didn't even manage to study for even an hour today. how bad things can get ): oh, and my condition's getting worse. my cough's quite bad, and body temp seems to keep on rising. but i dun care. i'll keep it down, so i can go out ! ;D
Monday 27 October 2008
i so feel suffocated. why, i didn't know. i used to thought how wonderful life would be, withthepresenceofyou. but why things seem so, vulnerable. please tell me what i'm thinking weren't true ):
where'd you go, i miss you so ): i had so many things i wanted to fill you with. and the reasons to why, i'm still afraid. if only you knew ):
Sunday 26 October 2008
finally, the air's cleared. and still, i'll always be here for you. like how i've always used to ;D
i get the drinking session i had always wanted to have ytd. as a form of relax, i thought. but it was very tough. i vomitted the moment i reached home. but i had a good night's sleep, though. with you around, i know things will be fine [: thanks for being there for me, ily =/
Friday 24 October 2008
a maths was okay today ;D but the day before was really easy. well, idk why. thoughts are just coming to me like endless flow of river. the future looks rather daunting actually. or maybe, thats life=/
万一有一天一切都开始起了变化. 你也开始感到厌倦,厌烦. 那.. 怎么办? ):
Thursday 23 October 2008
okay, 4 days passed. and soon, everything's gonna be over. the drinking session and rowdyness shall resume in no time. people, GET HIGH ! ;D
thanks for being there for me when i needed you the most. those words were comforting, really. don't worry too much all right, like how you wanted me to trust you. trust me too, nothing will go wrong. okay? =/
Monday 20 October 2008
if ultimately, at the end of the day. thats what you think. there's nothing we can do to change the fact. sometimes, we have to sit back to think. what have we done that cause such a change. its not always certainly the fault of others. you pushed me away, like i was some kind of pest. pushing me to people that everyone disliked. didn't i just smiled to bring it through? there were times you didn't realise that i was actually hurt by your words. so hurt. or maybe, that was the time that you'd gave up. but why are you giving up when we are trying so hard to salvage. did you give us the chance to fill you in? or perhaps, things have started to change way way before we realised. its enough of trying. cos i know.. 我们都累了. 就当做给彼此冷静的时候. 想想当初的快乐时光,而不是为当初的不满而耿耿于怀. 因为到了最后, 你会发现事情真的真的没么复杂. 但愿在不久的将来,我们至少还是朋友.
Sunday 19 October 2008
we had always been here for you, for you to realise. without fail, you pushed us away. we've tried. but at the end of the day, its becoming the fault of ours. its time to sit back and think. it isn't bout who's right or wrong. but who've tried. if ultimately, at the end of the day, thats what you've felt. there's nothing we can do. remember what you said to me that day? i swear those words were hurtful. but never did you realise.
those times when we hanged out tog, seriously. they were a pleasure. times you told me you were tired, i tried to be there for you. i've always been there for you. but never did you realise.
淡了.那感觉也不会在一样.
and, you've never been a substitute. you've been you. a friend that i once cherished. now, you still do.
Friday 17 October 2008
finally at last. everything's ended. and we know, whats exactly going on. thanks, we're beginning to see things clearer.
Thursday 16 October 2008
i didn't expect to be thinking of you the moment i open my eyes. to the extent, i so wanna see you=/
Thursday 9 October 2008
you know? you suck. YOU SUCK. AND YOU, you suck too. but the greatest sucker is still me. i'm genuinely tireeeeeed. drown me with VODKA. then fall into a deep deep sleep that no matter what, nothing wakes me up.
Wednesday 1 October 2008
its all about studying and more studying. its all about tuition and more tuition. its all about mugging and even more mugging. thats how boring life can be =/
